long story short. I went to eddie’s and my favorite sushi place for dinner tonight. party of one. according to the trusty swarm app, the last time we went there was july 9. they were shocked when I told them about his passing. yoey said, “he looked perfect last time I saw him.” indeed. it was emotional for me to be there again. but I felt supported by my friends and cecilia. and that’s all I needed.
afterwards, stumbled upon an art event. I sipped and socialized. got some photobooks, instagram follows, fist bumps (skaters), and hugs (bartenders). was nice.
after all that though. I missed eddie a bunch. alone and I felt it. but this is a perfect world and nobody is here for me except for me.