I thought I was cured of my social anxiety but there was a little bit of it tonight at Dave c’s party. It happens a lot when you don’t feel like you fit in. Thank god Sylvia was there. She understands my shrimp chips + bourbon diet.
did some more online shopping. I regret procrastinating. None of the gifts I’ll be giving are that great. But maybe I get a pass this year.
i know holidays are not about the gifts. But sometimes they are. I like when people give me nice material things because they love me. Not everyone cares for Fancy things and that’s exactly what I like about them. I felt sad when the Neiman marcus jewelry catalog showed up in the mailbox (addressed to eddie). He always wanted me to have the best things, and his taste in bling was impeccable. I miss that. So what.
already Sunday. Wishing I could freeze time like evie garland. I would touch you. 1:42 am.