Author: streetmadonna

I’M STILL NOT DONE MOVING. LAST SUNDAY, MY BEST FRIENDS SHOWED UP AGAIN TO HELP PACK, CLEAN, AND LIFT HEAVY THINGS. I CAN’T BELIEVE HOW LUCKY I AM. They were dirty, exhausted, and sneezing and sniffling from all the dust. I hope they never get mad at me. through all the dirty work, I developed…

I’m in my new apartment and it’s superb. Spacious, serene, and unfamiliar. I have dozens of boxes to unpack, but first I have to pack them and then transport them here. My old apartment is a royal mess and half of my things are still laying around on the floor in piles of dust. i…

happy lunar new year. Another new beginning and wishes for lucky things. Lots of change, light, love, and energy. i’ll write more when I’m not so sleepy. grateful for 880, year of the horse, truckloads, bouquets and kaviar, my coworkers, big boxes, boreal, diamonds, time. 1:40 am.

A lot going on and time never slows down. I got the keys to my new place. I’m not living there yet but it vibes peaceful so I think it should be good. Bright lights no furniture shiny floors. We’ll eat Chinese food on our cardboard box table. I had dinner with Amy tonight. She…

Today was cool. one day closer to the closer. grateful for Tuesday night outings, my mom cheered me up, picks oner, thumbprint whorls, Heineken, big dogs, neighbors, fat wires, slow motion. 1:54 am.

Happy February. This is the month I’ll say goodbye to this wonderful apartment. This is the week I’ll get keys to the top of the hill. I’ll live differently Like a morning person. I’ll write notes like I can no longer associate myself and scratch them out. i’m watching rosemary’s baby right now because it’s…

I went to the new apartment today to check on a plumbing leak. all seems good—no mold. The place won’t officially be mine until next week, but it’s occupying a lot of my headspace. I was supposed to be packing and doing a bunch of stuff this week, but of course I didn’t. i was…

i was emotional and didn’t get much of anything done. i recently found out that my friend Luke passed away two months before eddie did. It was a shock and i was sad. We worked together a long time ago and kept in touch here and there. Our conversations were always very good. He was…

Decluttering continues. Dylan and momopot stopped by to help with some of Eddie’s studio equipment. People always offer to help, but my friends actually mean it. i looked through a lot of old personal items that belonged to eddie. Birthday cards written to him by old friends and people he looked up to; photographs of…

i stopped by Lenny and taz’s place tonight to visit ripley. He is a very good boy with a sweet smile. He is very near the end of his life, and everybody knows this situation is the hardest part about having a dog. A small group of friends gathered to pet, hold, and console him,…

there is so much going on yet nothing to write about. I’m moving next month so I’m supposed to be decluttering, donating, selling, packing, cleaning. I’ve been lazy. There is a lot to do and lots of potential triggers to sort through. Some of it is sad; all of It is overwhelming. I am not…

exhausted. Soaking in the river of change is tiring. Grateful for q work days, new accounts, no funds but so rich, doggy dental care, Lysol, vitamins, color. 12:42 am.

My apartment has a plumbing issue right now. The kitchen sink is overflowing with stinky black sludge. I would have believed that the loud girls upstairs dumped black paint down the drain, but the plumber said someone else dumped a bunch of grease. really There’s only one rule when it comes to kitchen sinks. won’t…

happy new year. I’ve been on winter holiday vacation and I’m not ready for Monday return to work. The days off have been wonderful—lots of family, friends, foods, drinks, funnin’, etc. I didn’t set any resolutions for this year. Remember every year I try to do the splits and always get kind of close and…

Countdown to Christmas. I spent lots of time today wrapping gifts and tracking packages. Some won’t arrive until the 24th. Not sure what that means when giving and receiving gifts is my main love language. I always wait until the last minute, but there is a lot to say. i’m officially on Christmas vacation. Well,…

I’m up late because we went to Eddie’s work party. I had some anxiety before the event, but all was beautiful. Lots of hugs and people happy to see me and happier to see me happy. The love is strong. Grateful for therapy, good hugs, Dillon + Janice, tazcat, cupcake in a cup, pleather pants,…

i accomplished a bit of Christmas shopping. When you find a good deal on a nice gift that you think the person will love, do you also buy that same item for yourself? I did today. And now it is sold out. I guess I’m not the only one who loves a shiny ______. i…

I’ve been thinking about my future. Some masters say there’s no point in worrying about the future—only the present moment is real. I’m not worrying, I’m just trying to form a plan. Kind of a complicated plan. I need to move, I need to secure large amounts of money, I need to build body mass,…

Youtube says there are easy things you can do to make your body feel young again. I’ve been doing them—deep squatting, hanging on a pull-up bar, pushups. Also been eating like a bachelorette. Not lean cuisine. grateful for Taylor swift, Dewalt, sweet person, Zillow, lagwagon, my job, espresso, the present moment. 12:46 am

I haven’t been doing much lately. Been working a bunch, but outside of the office I’ve been pretty lazy. I have long to-do and shopping lists. Let’s say I’ve been resting. This morning, the apartment building manager sent an email saying there was free Starbucks in the lobby. i went downstairs in my pajamas and…