Tonight at the restaurant, the server smiled and waved as my mom and I were walking up. We had not seen her in over a year. She’s kind of a special person—she isn’t korean but speaks korean to my mom, she memorizes our orders, and works multiple jobs because she’s a hustler. She emits warmth. And is cute. A part of me wanted to inform her of Eddie’s passing, but I didn’t want us to feel sad. Eddie really liked her and that place.

grateful for Irene, surf and turf, my mom, sweet potato, doc Charles, Thursday is the new Friday since 1996, my job, Special people, hot tea, cream puffs, macarons, saving the life of a horsefly, too many little things.

12:54 am.

I have an 8am meeting so I’ll write quick, finish shopping prime deals, watch tv, and close my eyes.

i miss my mom and I’m happy I’ll see her tomorrow. Do you miss your mom if you don’t see her or talk to her much for a few weeks? Today someone answered no.

i think my dog likes me a little more these days. She’s lying so close to me right now. They say it can take years for them to trust you (sometimes they never do). They teach us a lot. like Greek yogurt is good.

this is what I bought on prime deals: this and this and this.

grateful for affiliate links, cuddly pup, pridos, hump day, good naps, little Tokyo lunches, j&j team, collages, toro jordans, amazon discounts, Carlie, busy work life, fixing things, laughing in my sleep.

1:09 am.

It doesn’t feel right that i have to pack all the fun things into the weekend. But I do a pretty good job. Very patriotic of me.

I was tired today—I’ve been tired a lot lately. I need a vacation, a foot massage, some alcohol-free days, and a family dinner.

And I shall have them.

grateful for fun and safe times, family, k bars, brownie bars, fern and flor, thrashard, Velma, Mr t’s bowl, no Sunday scaries, emotional support, this blog is art, Waymo, tiki drinks, to-do lists, all the things I shall have.

11:42 pm.

went out for drinks and dinner with my bestie neighbor. As we walked through the arts district, I got that feeling again where I felt love for the city.

I came home and read a bunch of texts from saelee and felt more love.

A lot of things in my life are in need of repair right now—the peloton bike, the Nelson clock, the water filter, the MacBook battery, the spark plugs. All just things. luckily, all the people are all right.

Grateful for true friends, crudo, naps, orange wine, Friday, plan b, grilled oysters, my legs, Herman miller, black people, being independent, crickets, golden love baths.

1:35 am.

happy October. People get sad or weird this time of year. Maybe lonely. Nostalgic. Home sick. Holidays. Don’t let them turkeys drag you down.

grateful for dogtown, Clio awards, Thursday, forever stamps, iced mochas, simplehuman, sleeping, bling, babe ruthless, the Mona Lisa.

12:57 am.

Funnin’ is hard work. So exhausted from weekend warrioring. I stayed in pajamas all day, skipped exercise, skipped drinks and comedy night, ate zucchini bread in bed, and binged next gen chef. My eyelids felt heavy all day, but now that It’s 1am, I feel alive. tannis anyone?

grateful for bloody Mary’s, basketball, Mario kart, blue moon, Izakayas, meditation, bunker hill, chicken livers, family in Houston, family in Toronto, Niko’s tuxedo, being lazy, no meetings, learning from mistakes, greens, lotto winnings, safe travels, sweet people.

1:14 am.